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Tuesday, September 26, 2006Y
i still love you.....

여자이니까
kiss - because i'm a woman lyric....

i just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time
you're special
I believed those words
and I was so happy

*
you should have told me you didn't like me anymore
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you
I'll still miss you
since I am a girl
to whom love is everything


i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again

* repeat chorus

hey babe
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but i know now
i've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever i needed you you'd always be here
i can forgive but i cant forget
even though you hurt me
i still love you...i still love you

don't take advantage of a girl's willingness
to do anything for love and her caring instinct
i didn't know that
to be born as a girl
and to be loved
was so hard

although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything


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cool
it has a good meaning
and its sad too

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:00 AM  

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Friday, September 22, 2006Y
*aPieceOfJunkByXuE*

everything happens for a reason. people come to your life for a reason. people come in your heart for a reason. a reason I still couldn't understand. the reason that I still am searching for. which I could not find ang it starts to hurt me. hurting deep down from inside. shed of tears running down from my eyes. somehow this heart just seems to be broken. broken into tiny pieces which for now no one will ever can recover it for me. hoping someone just come and fix my heart. I know it will not be easy to heal. it does need time. much much more time tp forget all the memories out of my mind and my heart. I have never been felt sorry for falling for you. falling for you was such a greatful thing that ever happened to me so far. all those imaginations. all those dreams. all those poetic words. ahh. what a wonderful memory. only if we could keep things the way they used to be. there will not be any tears shedding down. ahh. just let whatever needs to happens. happen. it will be hard to accept though. but. sometimes you just need to go with the flow. reality are sometimes tough and rough to be accept. and. guess what. this is the reality. that is what actually happened. so. just do cry sometimes. it does help. anyways. "girls are not cute if they are not cute if they are not sensitive". a quote by Asou-kun from ichi ritoru no namida. a real support for me while I cry. :] . well. that's just it/ just letting my mind go around those sweet and sour memories as the time pass will slowly erases those out of my heart.

*aPieceOfJunkByXuE*

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Thursday, September 21, 2006Y
lagii?!?

bner2 gy depress negh.....
hehehehe......
mkana nuliz muluw....
maqlum lagh....
klo g stress kan bawaanna....
nuliz,, ngtiqq.....
muw mngekspresikan smwana....
tp gq bs....
krn ksakitan akan seswatu pd akhirna pun ttp gq bs d wujudkan di atas kertas maupun di dalam sebuah website...
dalamna sebuah hati gq ad yg taw....
prasaan org yg sesungguhna pun,, gq ad yg taw...
smuana adalah sebuah misteri dmn yg tau hanyalah org tsb dan Tuhan....
semuanya kembali lg pd asas kejujuran.

agih2....
putis2 muluw.....
tambah stress kuw ntar....
tdie d klz spanish bqin seswatu...
tp msih blon slese jg.....
jd, kpn2 en klo nyat dhe g truzin en g post....
kata2 kekna rada2 dalem....
maqlum,, ati g jg gy trluqa dlm....
>,<
gq bs d bilank salah syapa...
kmungkinan malah ini smua aqibat dr ksalahan g sndiri.....
kata grace, "hidup itu pnuh pilihan, dan gq smwa pilihan yg luw bkin itu bner..."
kekna g milih yg salah...
tp berbalik lg...
toh itu kan pilihan g bukanna?
jdi sbenerna en smestina g gq bole komplen klo g sampe sakid kan?
juga lg....
salah syapa yg bs syg sm dy?
bkn salah dy lagh...
dy mn bs bkin g syg ma dy?
itu smwa kan jg prasaan g sndiri kan?
makana,, gara2 hal ini,, ini jg salah g sndiri..
dmn g gq menyadari akan hal ini sebelumya...
tapi yah....
apa boleh buat toh?!?
hehehe...
dah trlanjur terjadi jg...
tinggal jalanen aja....
cuz life GOES ON!!!
wudever happens,, life still is....
its just NOT EASY k?
andai g bs ngerti itu smwa...
mungken g gq bkal se down ini kli yapp?!?
hmm....
liat aja dhe.....
susahna syg sm org...
mn hbungan LD kek gini...
byar dha brakir jg...
g jg ngerti dritana dy....
pnya ce kq gq ad orgna...
d barengin sm ksibukanna,, dy psti lambat laun akan lupa jg sm khadiran g....
gq bs d salain kan?
itu cman krn salah jaraq en waqtu,, jg ksibuqan dy....
slaen ituw....
gq ad yg bs d salaen....
byar berad bwad g untuq nrima smwa inih....
tp klo gq brad bwad dy....
yah,, bguz jg lagh....
seenggana 1 org di dunya ini g taw gy gq bersedih......
^^
pngen bobo...
byarpun g gq yakin klo g bs bobo...
lyat aj ntar....
hmmph.....
smoga g tambah kuad dr hari ke hari yahh......
:]

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006Y
_?!?_

hari ini g bner2 ngrasa bangga atas diri g sndiri....
percaya ato gq,, g bs njalanin ini smwa dgn tegar....
slalu mncoba untuq kuat...
byarpun msih ada air mata yg jatuh beberapa kali,,
namun aqu msih bangga aqan diri qu sndiri akan itu...
aq taq mnyanka klo g bs gq berlarut2....
byarpun sesaat kan teringat masa2 itu lagi.....
ahhh......
semuanya sudah berlalu kan?
yesterday is a history rite?
so just let this be a history.....
byarkanlah ini smwa hanya jadi knangan.....
manispun, pahitpun kenangan itu...
sampai skarank itu msih jd yg trindah.....
:]
mungkin untuq sementara g bkal menutup diri dr prasaan yg namanya
"cinta"
byarpun g gq perna nyesel perna sayang sm dy....
namun rasa kecewa dan bayang2 akan pertanyaan pun taq kunjung hilang...
kekecewaan pribadi yg mungkin taq kan ada yg mengerti slain diri qu sndiri.....
>,<
sudahlah.....
semuanya jg udha berlalu kan?
byar pahit jg muw d apaen agy?
trima aja lagh.....

dan smoga ini bqal jd blog trakir mngenai kesdihan en khancuran hati g.....
smoga semakin hari berjalan,, semakin byk kesibukan memenuhiku....
dmn pd akhirna ku berharap tiada lagi tempat untuq semua memori itu dlm hati dan pqiran ku...
meskipun aq menyadari bahwa itu taq akan mungkin terjadi dlm waqtu dkad ini....
tp aq brharap ini smwa trjadi secepatna....
agar aq gq lagi merasa terluka seperti ini.....

dan meskipun qu taq perna menyesali pernah menyanyanginya....
dimana aqpun masih merasa perasaan yg sama padanya....
dan mungkin perasaan ini taq aqan hilank dgn mudah dan cepadna...
tp....
yudah lagh....
muw apa agy cba?
cman pngen bilank ini bwad yg trakir klina...
aq msih syg kmuw,, dan syg sm kmuw slama ini was never been a regret...
hehehe.....
yg ad cman kcewa kan...
dha g bilank,, g gq nyesel syg ma dy kq....
>,<
dha akh....

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sadly,, it has to end here....

"keep on smilin!"
remembered wud he exactly said...
seems like it was written in my heart and in my mind...
my guide before i do anything....
always tryin to keep on smilin....
i always do....
but u kno wud?
the one who ask me to smile is the one who made me cry....
i dont kno why i cried...
ur not even worth to be cried about...
ur not even do care....
why did i cry just now?
HE'S NOT EVEN WORTH IT!!!!
but it just hurt so bad...
i could hardly even think of other...
hahahahhahahahahahhahahahahha...........
i wish i could laugh that loud right now....
i know for sure it'll help to heal my heart...
which will not going to be easy.....
it will take times.....
long times.....
man,, i should've known its going to be like this sooner or later....
well,, at least,, it will least hurt than now....
its hurt....
i can tell....
shit!
i still have all ur words....
all ur promissess....
which now i know was all LIE...
was just a HUGE LIE....
pretending to love me...
u thought was funny maybe,, huh?
well...
probably u should learn how hurt is it!
maybe u should FEEL it too!
i think u MUST...
then u wont hurt another one....
its too complicated....
and u just go....
leaving me hurting back here....
hahaha!!!
how sad and desperate am i?
was hoping something else happened....
but...
no...
ill just lost my only hope...
and just be sad and stupid....
like a stupid person who's hurting....
yeah....
all ends now....
everything.....
ends today.....
the day before i get to take my math test...
the day i was suppouse to be happy tomorrow...
but then,, the only thing left is only sadness....
too hard to accept....
ill just try to accept it by the time goes on...
just try to forget u by the time goes......
hopefully itll be fast...
the faster the better...
the faster,, the less hurt...
HAHA!
ill just go on with this...
lyin on my bed tryin to sleep which i kno for sure wont i get tonight...
.......
i dont really know wud else to say....
that guy....
was once gave me happiness....
but now hurts me.....
wud d f*ck is dat?
wdfwdf...
wudever hapen happens then........
hope can forget this feelin by tomorrow....
possible?
one word : NO
well...
dunno....
ill juz get goin to bed....
we'll see wud happen.....

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Sunday, September 17, 2006Y
:]

subjekna ":]"
dmn seseorang sdank mnunggu untuq qmbali tersenyum...
kluar dr kesedihan yg sdang d alaminya....
mungkin ini smua tralu berat baginya....
dan mungkin semua ini trlalu rumit baginya....
namun,,
btapa krasna ia brusaha....
btapa lamana ia menunggu.....
mengapa semua itu terasa sia2 dan hanya buang waktu?
kenapa dari hari yg berlalu yang ada hanyalah air mata dan kepedihan hati?
tahukah kamu kalau aku selalu menunggumu setiap malam....
malam dimana aku tahu kamu tidak akan muncul....
malam dimana aku tahu bahwa penantianku sia2....
bahkan di malam mimnggu ini....
dimana kamu selalu bilank kalau ini "malam kita,, hari kita"
tahukah kaw bahwa biarpun kamu bilank semua memank sudah berbeda namun ia tetap selalu menyimpan bayangmu di hatinya?
dan bahwa ia selalu mengharapkan namamu muncul di layar hp nya?
aku tahu bahwa semuanya telah berubah bagimu.....
tapi sepertinya itu taq akan perna brubah dlm ku....
aku belajar untuk mengerti kesibukanmu......
namun,,
mengapa rasanya sakit di siiniiiii?
dimana ketika semua kenangan itu kembali terungkap yang ada hanyalah airmata....
bisakah kau mengerti akan ini?
bisakah kau mengerti keperihanku ini?
yah....
sudahlah....
biarlah apa yang mungkin akan terjadi,,
terjadilah.....
akupun sudah taq bisa berbuat apa2 lagi......
semuanya tergantung siapa yang menjalani......
ku selalu mengharap akan happy ending....
namun bila itu taq tercapai.....
apa pun kan ku terima.......
biar ini menyakitkan......
tapi,,
terima kasih.....
kau telah membuatku seseorang yg berbeda....
yg bisa mengerti hidup.....
yg bisa menghargai hidup...
untuk itu semua,,
terima kasih.....
sekarang aku akan belajar menenangkan diri.....
berharap aku kan siap menerima apa pun kenyataan bicara....
biar "terkadang kenyataan memanglah pahit"
toh tak ada yg bisa kau lakukan kan?
ku kan hanya menunggu.....
menunggu jawaban itu......
jawaban darimu......
akankah ini terjawab?
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Friday, September 08, 2006Y
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haiz2,, GILA....
skul dah mulaen,, TORTURE started,, dah 2 hri skul negh,, gra2 ituwh,, gq semped agy sm yg namana nuliz blog....
bner2 TERLUPAQAN,, yagh,, sbenerna gq jg c....
cman yagh,, gq semped ajah.....
ddah 3 are malah,, ini blog cuman g buqa en gq semped g tuliz2...
emank bner2 MADEZU agh......
caphe bgd negh skul....
cape tangan,, cape kakhii,, cape ATII...
caphe otaq jg....
ampe skrg siku g gq bs d lurusin,, tralu sakid bwad d lurusin gra2 tralu byq bwad buqu text buq,, mn bso ada ituw agy,, HUH!! ad world historie dmn tambah agy 1 buqu agy yg msti dbawa....
napa gq bunhu ajha?!?
gy byk bgd DILEMA d dlm pala....
STRESS en DEPRESSIE tingkadd tinggie negh....
bner2 caphe dhe......
gq taw msti gmn,, gq mungken g anggep angin en seenaqna g lupaen gtuw ajah....
tp klo d pqirin muluw,, gmn yagh?!?
g jg gq mow jd manusya super stress <>
tp,, klo traluw d bwa "dalem" yg ada mah ntar nangis muluw.....
TRAGEDI terjadi deh....
tp emank bner2 DILEMA negh.....
kata hati sendiri aja gq taw gmn agy dngerna.....
malah skrg,, otaq yg lbih d dnger drpd kata hati sendiri....
byar lbih *rasional en make sense* tp yagh,, klo slaluw ngikutin apa kata otaq,, yg ada ntar *sakid ati*
huah,, mungken ksakidan hati tsb dah ada dr lama kli yagh?!?
cman *pura-pura* gq taw en *nutupin* kekna.....
XD
DILEMA negh.....
msalah skul jg jd DILEMA...
gq nyangka klo di "algebra 2e" tuch,, bkal kek gini.....
bkanna apa en gmn yagh,, tp msalahna trnyata sbagian ini dah dyajaren di "algebra 1"
nahh,, duwu gq ada thu yg namana ngambil ituwh plajarann,, ad jg yg dyambil langsunk geometrii....
makana sbagian bsar gq ngerte negh,, tp ad bebrapa yg ngerti brhubunk duwu di indo jg ud prnah ngungkidd2 diqid....
tp rasana smuana berbaliq dsini,, gq taw np yagh,, tp pernah bebrapa kli,, ngrasa pengen nge *Drop* ituw klz....
yahh,, tp byk bgd prtimbanganna.....
gq muw dpt C kan d klz ituw,, dpt B jg klo bs JANGAN.....
tp kq rasana GQ MUNGKEN agy yagh?!?
kekna ap yg jalanin en usahain byar bs tamba "mudenk" ama bab inih,, kq rasana SIA2 yagh?!?
senen ini ulangan bab ini....
mesti gmn?!
gq mow dpt EPH kan?!?
klo ituw trjdie,, brati ap yg d usahaen slama ini smuana SIA2 kan?!?
mn uda jd seseorng yg bner2 GA TAW DIRI agy,, minta dyajaren sm seorang manusya brnama MARTIN yg bner2 bae bgd yg bertempad d s'pore en brkulia di Nanyang.....
bner2 gq enaq g sm dy,, minta d ajaren berjem2....
sm GRACE jg,, yg katana,,"PARAH luw chelle..."
makac smwahhhh.....
jah....
apa gunana BLAJAR skrg ini?!?
tp klo g DROP jg,, SATUUU,, byk tmen yg g knal d klz ituw,, en rasana....
taw lagh,, klo nge DROP truz ngambel klz byasa....
GIMANNAAA gtuw.....
ituw dah prtimbangan prtama....
kedwa,, klz ini thu udha trmsuk trig,, alhasil,, taon dpn gq usha ambil trig agy.....
en malah baqal msuk math analysis e,, dmn susah msuk klo awalna gq di klz ini.....
YUP!!! byar kesanna cman 2 prtimbangan,, tp bwad g susah bgd inih.....
bner2 gq muw ngambil kputusan....
yg jlz,, gq mungken bs DROP OUT dr klz klo dah lewad dr minggu ke dwa.....
msti gmn g?!?
msti brtahan d klz ini ato drop negh?!?
PUSINK.....
itu DILEMA ke dwa....
DILEMA prtama...
ada hbunganna sm lagu "My Heart" na Irwansyah en Acha......
g gq taw agy msti gmn.....
msalah ini trmsuk *internal conflict*
maqsudna konflik thdp diri sndiri....
konfli antara pndapad OTAQ en HATI g....
dmn g sndiri gq bs bqin kputusan dr situw.....
dmn INI DILEMA yg mayan gede....
HADOOHH....
gq sanggup miqir agy negh.....
KAPASITAS OTAQ DAH MAKSIMUM.......
hikzu hikzu hikzu....
bner2......

klo gq ngrasaen,, mreqa bqal bilank...
"keq gtu DILEMA?"
--"
jah,, BUAD G INI DILEMA,, so wud?!?
i dun care wud ppl say bout me.....
klo g ngomonk ma daniel en g bilank...
"g nih dsini aj dah trknal gra2 *NYOLOD* na... hehe,, ampe dbilank *freshmen nyolod*"
eh,,
dy mala bilank....
"alah,, jah,, klo mreka muw btemen ma luw,, mreqa msti nrima SYAPA luw lagh....."
TUHH,, DENGER!!
>>dtujukan bwad org yg ska NGEJUDGE g jeleq....
udah gq pduli lg.....
ksringan d ledeq c....
jd kekna dah byasa ajah....
gq tralu ngaruh gmn agy gtuh...
BODHO!!!!

sbenerna slaen DILEMA,, ad jg UNEG2....
*kangen,, tp miqir,, ap cman g doank yg PDULI,, ap dy gq pduli lg,, ap g satu2na yg worried,, ap g satu2na yg sedih en ngrasa kcewa,, ap g doank yg ngrasa klo pengertian spt ini tuh bner2 susah,, ap g doank yg berharap LEBIH.....*
prtanyaan2 yg gq bs d jawab.......
dan yg pd awalna muw qubyarkan taq trjawab.....
namuan,, skrg ini....
rasana ingin smua ini terjawab dan mnghilankan beban inii......
cuman pengen taw KEPASTIAN doank.....
itu ajah....
gq lbih......
susah ya?!?
gini truz jg emank g gq kcian ap?!?
stress taw...
caphe atii mqirin yg gq pntink......

yahh,, bgituwlah,, skali nuliz yg asli panjank,, tp msih byk agy negh.....

klz g dr yg atuw ke yg atuwna agy,, GILA,, JAW BGD....
betis bekonde en tangan sakid gq bs d lurusin.....
bner2 kcian dhe g....
mn beban jasmani udah ada,, beban rohani jg ada...
KOMPLID DAGH PNDRITAAN g....

agh,, dah agh,, muw bantuin c grace bkin pr na dy.....
cya klo semped en ada waqtu agy.....

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Monday, September 04, 2006Y

GILA!!!
bso SKUL!!!
gq nyangka lbur 3 bln bqal braqhir bgituw cpaddna...
[[saiia masih ingin merasakan niqmatna libur!!]]
``saiia msih ingin BEGADANK....
:+: saiia msih ingin ngrasaen hidupp tanpa skul en hmwrk :+:
msih muw chat 24/7
gq muw skul duwu agh!!!
hikz,, mn barusan beres2 tas skul en hasilna,, BERAD bgd agy....
HOEKH!
UGH!!!!!! gq bgd agh!!!! gq mow!!!!!! TIDAQQ!!!
yupz2,, btoel2,, inih blog dah RESMI d buqa baliq...
dah klar tu PR JAHANAM!!!!
itu pr bs slese brkadd jasa MARTIN yg muw ngajaren,, hwhwhw,, makac makac.....
haiz2,, dsuruw bobo negh....
bso skul soalna,, end of BGADANK!!!
ARGGHH!!!
TIDAQ!!!!
hiz hiz hiz hiz...
d itunk pulah ampe spuluh....
dah agh....
tha"

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:+: dtiQ2 aQhiR LbuRan,, SENGSARA sGeRa d MULAI :+:

HADOOHH!!!!
BUNUH AJHE DHE!!!
ARI NIY TGL 2 YAK?!?!
MAMPUZ!!!
3 HR LG SKUL!!!
GQ SALAH THU?!?
PR G MSIH NUMPUQ NEGH....
UAHH!!!!
BLOG GQ D URUS SMENTARA SAMPE PR SLESE DHE!!!!
C U C U
AUTHOR GE STREZZ...
BUNHU AJHE DHE...
HUAAA!!!!!
GQ MUW IDUP LAGHE!!!!
HIKZU HIKZU HIKZU!!!!
GQ SALAH?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!!?!?!?
HUAAAA....
DAH AGH....
PNGEN BKIN PR!!!
BNER2!!!
BUNHU AJHA!!!!
*JLEBB*
tha"
C U PAS PR SLESE!!!!

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