"keep on smilin!"
remembered wud he exactly said...
seems like it was written in my heart and in my mind...
my guide before i do anything....
always tryin to keep on smilin....
i always do....
but u kno wud?
the one who ask me to smile is the one who made me cry....
i dont kno why i cried...
ur not even worth to be cried about...
ur not even do care....
why did i cry just now?
HE'S NOT EVEN WORTH IT!!!!
but it just hurt so bad...
i could hardly even think of other...
hahahahhahahahahahhahahahahha...........
i wish i could laugh that loud right now....
i know for sure it'll help to heal my heart...
which will not going to be easy.....
it will take times.....
long times.....
man,, i should've known its going to be like this sooner or later....
well,, at least,, it will least hurt than now....
its hurt....
i can tell....
shit!
i still have all ur words....
all ur promissess....
which now i know was all LIE...
was just a HUGE LIE....
pretending to love me...
u thought was funny maybe,, huh?
well...
probably u should learn how hurt is it!
maybe u should FEEL it too!
i think u MUST...
then u wont hurt another one....
its too complicated....
and u just go....
leaving me hurting back here....
hahaha!!!
how sad and desperate am i?
was hoping something else happened....
but...
no...
ill just lost my only hope...
and just be sad and stupid....
like a stupid person who's hurting....
yeah....
all ends now....
everything.....
ends today.....
the day before i get to take my math test...
the day i was suppouse to be happy tomorrow...
but then,, the only thing left is only sadness....
too hard to accept....
ill just try to accept it by the time goes on...
just try to forget u by the time goes......
hopefully itll be fast...
the faster the better...
the faster,, the less hurt...
HAHA!
ill just go on with this...
lyin on my bed tryin to sleep which i kno for sure wont i get tonight...
.......
i dont really know wud else to say....
that guy....
was once gave me happiness....
but now hurts me.....
wud d f*ck is dat?
wdfwdf...
wudever hapen happens then........
hope can forget this feelin by tomorrow....
possible?
one word : NO
well...
dunno....
ill juz get goin to bed....
we'll see wud happen.....