im not actually counting days anymore. im getting better, actually.
i can smile and laugh more eventually.
i dont even think about him that often anymore.

i just woke up.
i had a dream last night.
he was on my dream.
the dream was kinda random, but it made sense for some reasons.
i was dreaming that me and him met in YM again (which haven't happened for the last couple of days, i was being a pig, snoring the whole day....). talked about whatever i wanted from Japan.
he told me that he couldn't find any *couple cell phone charm* and also couldn't get the *love 'jimat'*
then, i asked for sumting different, i said that i'd like a *cute japaness-dy doll* and a *tote bag*
but, what made me confused was the fact that he was such in a huge rush, im not sure whether he was listening or not.
i rarely remember any of my dreams, except if it really is the weird one.
this one is really unusual.
i actually wanna meet him in YM and talk about the stuff i want from Japan. Im not sure whether he's willing to get me those of not. but it worth the try. :D *big evil grin*

i don't know why i dreamed about him last night. weird. awkward. but it happened.
wait...
is it becoz i miss him so much?
or becoz something else?
anyway, i just realize that,
i kinda like him MORE than i thought i was.
i seemed desperate, but i dont care
lol....

[no other words...]