Prasa'an g akhir2 ini gag perna nentu... Rasana slalu aj ad yg ngebebanin pkiran.. *dilema remaja kah? Gq ad y taw jg... Mngkin g trlihat egois klo mikir gini, tp g sndiri dah ilang akal what's right en what's not enimore.. Everything seems likd a perfect piece of untainted white paper... ¤yeep i'm that clueles¤ GAHHH!

G bner2 bngung gmm hrus mnghadapi smwa inih ugh! Rasana maw nangis en brharap swanya brakhir dgn bengkaknya mata! Namun syg, dunia dan hidup gag smudah itu *kyaaaaaa* rasana pngen treak skenceng2na tp yg ad bkal hanya sakid tnggorokan en no result.. Cape2 sakid leher tp ttp gag ad arti..

Sjak bebrapa hr ni g gag ktemu sm dy en g ngrasa kawatir bgd.. G jd inget ap kata wiqi,"klo msh kek gtu mah despo u msh tingkad tinggi" ato kt acit,"mei, it's not d end of the world! Lagian msh byk cupu laen d laut! Maw sampe kpn u lari d tmpat? It's not gonna get u eniwer!!" Yep! Gotta admid it was all true...

En smenjak dy mnghilang gq ad jejak sm skali gini, ag ad kabar sm skali~ it made me think.. Like A LOT!! En im not lyin'! Abis gmn? Kek gini, seolah g nglakuin hal2 yg ga perlu.. Cemas kmn dy, g tkud dy sakid, plg mlm2 blon mkn sampe bneran sakid.. Saking kawatir bela2in sms ke indo, gag pduli nanti d bill hp gmn.. Dtunggu blzan sms seharian bru d blz bebrapa jem stelahna.. Kurang lbih jem 3mlm-an d indo.. G h tw knp dy blzna tlad bgd.. Yah bs byk alesan c, bs aj bru kbaca ato bru k kirim, ato bs jg krn dy emg cuek en gag pduli? Apapun alesana, saat ntu g cman mqir.. Jem 3 subuh... Dy gag pnter bgadank.. Ngapaen ia? Sakid pala gag ia bsoqna... Asdfasdf... Dsa dsb... Blakangan hr ni bgadank sampe subuh2 brharap msh bs ktemu, trnyata gag jg.. Gq tw jg lah..

G sbenerna tw klo ngawatirin dy, ato nyramain dy, ato nyari'in dy kmn klo lg gag ol bkn urusan g. Sama skali bkn! Tp g j gag tw knapa g msh kaiia gini.. Inika yg acit blg "lari d tmpat"? Most likely, yea.. G gq tw gmn carana spy bs lari en MAJU! Ini pointna yg sampe skrg msh bln nemu.. Huff~

Apa yg g lakuin skrg2 ini.. Does he ever see it? Gmn g pratian en care sm dy, does he even realize it? G jg gag ngerti.. I dont even kno if now im even sumbody worth of seeing in his eyes.. Ntah lah.. Yg bs g liat cuman kertas putih...

Smenjak putus, rasana inapropiate yah bwad pratian kek gtu? Pratian seolah dy co g.. Sekilas trlihat klo g salah ngerjain hal kek gini en dgn kek gni, pndangan org trhadap g pun mungkin brubah, jd *mei d lovefool, whose stupid enough to fell in love* yah.. Mungkin gag jaw dr itu.. But, do i even seem to put much attention to those? Nope. Bkn krn g tralu cuek ato ap.. Tp krn g sndiri gag bs ngindarin ini smwa.. Rasa kgn en kawatir itu hadir sndiri.. En i dont wanna be the only one who feel like this *tears here* tp apa yg bs g prbuat? Gag ada.

Mei yg skrg ini, hanya bs mnunggu waktu mnghapus knangan dan blajar membuka hati untuk syapa nanti bs ngebahagiain mei...
Untuk skrg, mei syg dy en hanya dy yg ad d hati mei.. Syg its not the same with him.. Well i think i just have to find a better one then? Idk.. None know wud will happen later, rite?